Top 10 Irrational Fears.

Some of these are not irrational at all.

Random brain puke.

10. Going home late and riding a cab with a sleepy driver. Once, I called on a driver for closing his eyes while driving (2am). Turns out, he just had chinky eyes. To add, I fear crashing to that road island in the middle of EDSA by the bridge in Guadalupe. I always worry that the driver will drive right into it, so I always check if he is awake by talking about the weirdest things.

9. Not bringing my laptop when on vacation. I always worry that people will need something from me at work while I’m away. I will need to learn to let go. I’ve done it thrice this year on my trip to Boracay, Tacloban and Cebu.

8. Rats eating me while asleep. In my old apartment, we had these huge rats. One in particular, we called Master Splinter (from Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles), because he was soooo big! Like a cat! He ate my waveboards (which were hard as eff).

7. Pissing my bed. I always panic when I’m dreaming about urinating. I feel like I have to slap my face into opening my eyes just to make sure I didn’t wet my sheets. Imagine my worry when sleeping in other people’s houses.

6. Phone calls from home. I got used to receiving just bad news when someone from the family calls. I get irritated when I miss the call and no one answers my SMS or calls, when I call back. Once my mom did this and I totally freaked out when I found out that she was just calling to let me know they were eating Sinigang (my favorite). I was so upset, I think I cried.

5. Crocodiles. Always been my special guests in my nightmares (Thanks to the movie, Lake Placid). I’ve held a baby gator in Palawan though. It didn't eat me.

4. Locked jaw. Instant fear when that happens.

3. Throwback Thursdays. I hate that hashtag. Mini heart attack everytime someone would tag me in an old photo. I just wanna block those people! And hulk smash them.

2. Flying cockroaches. No city insect can scare me more. Esp when I imagine it flying to my mouth while I’m screaming in fear. Recently, I just saw the most horrifying cockroach video I’ve seen. Vomit inducing, really. It’s HERE if you think you can stomach it.

1. Farting in my Yoga class. While my butt is in some person’s face. While a celebrity is in the class.

No photos.

I'd be amazed if anyone read through this.

How To Open Locked Itouch 4 When On Voice Over Mode (and Disable It).

The Voice Over mode in Itouch freakin drove me insane for thirty long minutes last night!

So I was playing with the settings and I accidentally turned on the voice over mode! It was the most irritating thing that could ever happen to someone who doesn't know how to turn it off! I swear, I wanted to smack it to the wall! LOL.

Anyway, I was out of my mind because it automatically locked because I set a password on the auto lock feature and I couldn't open it. I tried to input the code but it wont work! Grrrrrrr!!!

After a while, I finally had the sense to google it but the instructions I read were not helping. I'm blogging about it now in case someone needs the info. Here you go.

1. Your password is in a four number code usually. Input the first number and tap twice on the space (not in any number) and then input the next number and then tap twice on the space again. Do this 4x. You should be able to unlock your Itouch. (Example : If your password is 1234, input 1 and then tap twice on the space below ENTER PASSCODE words. repeat for the next three codes.)

2. Once Itouch is unlocked, go to Home>Settings>General>Accessibility>VoiceOver and click Off. Take note that to scroll down you have to use 3 fingers (i know! who thought about that?!).

 

Hope this helped, so you can avoid going crazy like I did. :)

Free Upsize At Starbucks! (Until March 7, 2011)

I got me a tall Caramel Frap as usual (Php 135.00 w/ free grande upgrade)

I've had colds and cough for a week now. Been feeling low lately, so I had to take a dose of my happy coffee. Made the coughing worse, but I don't care.

Baby Talk.

Camera : Nikon D3100 (Neng's)
Mode : Manual
Location : Pioneer Pointe, Boni. PH.
Date : February 2011

I'm loving babies lately. It's so weird. This cutey is Aaron, Ethel's nephew.

Purge Crooked Cab Drivers! (February 2011)

Photo credits from HERE. Colored in Paint.

I’ve been a victim of abusive taxi drivers too many times. With meters running so fast, sometimes it doubles my tab. Also, I didn’t mind cab drivers who refused to take you until I found out that was illegal. I esp. hate cabbies who ask for additional Php 50 only after you’re already 5 minutes in the cab. I swear if I had a taser, I’d zap you crooks from behind.

Blush! (Etude House. January 2011)

I finally found the glitter blush that I love! I've been using ELF blush lately because it's cheaper, but I love Etude's two toned blush! I simply had to have it!

Blessings Planner 2011.

I Wanna Drown In Art and Music.

Cry. Laugh. Dance with abandon.
Help me escape.
Let’s drown together.
I will wait.


- Ezra














Individual photos from Google Images (search music photos).
Post processed/collaged by me.
Listening to Grooveshark. Thanks Fons. :)
1.21.11  12:23 PM. Hating work.

Halloween Fever! (Fort, Taguig. October 2010)

GBS PH. Halloween Party.

We had a party last week at the office. I was too swamped with work to dress up though. Glad everybody had a blast! Next halloween, I'm gonna have fun, promise!

My Weapons of Choice. (October 2010)

Centrum. Straight from the US.

My mom gave me these multivitamin tablets. I'm worried it'll make me eat like a pig, but I fear getting sick more. Esp. now that I will be uber busy at work for the whole of October. I try to remember taking one everyday.

10.10.10 Wedding!

My friend Tin is getting married in 10 days!!!

***gotta buy a dress!***

LOVE.

LOVE.

May 30th, 2006 by Ezra Montemayor

They think I don’t have you. But oh, they are wrong. They couldn’t be more wrong. I used to think so myself but you knocked me back to my senses. In the clarity of my mind, you exposed yourself. Bared everything I’ve been meaning to see and feel. I couldn’t comprehend how it happened that you have always been with me. I was confused, maybe I still am and I tried to substantiate your existence by trying to come up with a concrete rationalization of how you moved me, but I can’t. So I dare not define you. ‘coz you have caught me offguard. you come in many forms. Blend so inconspicuously. I almost didn’t recognize you. Before you came, I thought I knew what your existence meant. I was being confident. I don’t know a thing. I can’t classify you, put you in one box. You are so much bigger than that. So much more complicated despite the notion of your simplicity. I’d like to think I chose you, but the coincidence of my world conspiring to meet yours is much more than my doing. You are beyond my control. I have tried so many times to define how you’ve enchanted me, but I end up with all the wrong explanations. Wrong conclusions. I challenge not your existence for fear of losing you. I want to believe how real you are, how real you make me feel. I wasn’t aware that you can do all these things to me. Make me fly and drown at the same time. I ran out of breath just thinking about you. How your presence and absence put me on the edge. Constantly taunting me. Making me cry for a million different wonderful reasons. I still think I can go on without you. I can. But I choose not to. You turn my world in circles and I’d rather have that, than not be moved at all. Sometimes I don’t understand. Actually, most of the time. I’ve given up on trying to have an absolute explanation of what you are. I can’t define you. How can I not define you? Have I become so stupid that all reasons have escaped me? or maybe, just maybe… I need no reason to have you. Wouldn’t that be a happy thought. all I know is that what you are, is more than my earthly mind could justify. It’s how you make me feel. I can’t explain it. You make me cry and laugh at the same time. If I didn’t know it was your doing, I’d say I was crazy. There is no second that you have left my mind. I can’t escape you no matter how I try. I remember how you made my insides flutter everytime you glimpsed my way and gave me that knowing smile. I still feel that way. Everytime. Oh how you make me feel. It’s everything at the same time. It’s the little things that make me smile, though. How you always manage to make me feel special no matter how useless I can sometimes feel. And you don’t even have to say anything to make me feel that way. It’s the way you whisper in my ear just before I fall deep into slumber. How you watch me sleep and keep me safe until I open my eyes to see you once more. How you dismiss all my imperfections and focus on me. It doesn’t matter how ugly I can be, you always make me feel beautiful. And when I worry about anything or anyone.., I just think about you and realize that what really matters to me is what you think. Nothing else. Just as long as you’re in me, I am safe. Many times I have felt so alone. Sometimes, scared out of my wits. All those times, I’ve held on to you. You kept me company. Kept me safe. I thought you would let go one time and I never felt more in pain. I wanted to let go myself but I couldn’t. it would hurt more to see you go. You are that one thing that makes me breathe. Move. I didn’t think anything or anyone can do that. Especially to me, considering everything I’ve gone through. Still, now I am stronger. I’ve prepared myself in case the world conspires to take you away from me. Fear makes you do that. But you are stronger than fear. So for now, I will linger in your arms. I will let you cradle me until the thought of the possibility that you can fade disappears. Then I will be a child again. Where I will believe that I can have everything if I just pray hard enough.

And I will hold you in my arms and never let go.

Shrek 3D Date. (Gateway, Cubao. May 2010)

My family is in the city because of our Lola's death. But my little baby could not be here without playing in the arcades. So she charmed her dad into giving her a thousand bucks so we can have a date. LOL. Talk about hypnosis!

We had our date at the Gateway Mall because it was near where the wake was being held (Nacional at Araneta Ave.). Danica was an excited little chirper. :)

My baby being cute. :)

Lookie What I Just Had For Lunch! (GBS All Hands. May 19, 2010)

Had a heavy (free) lunch because our bosses from all over the world came to visit. :)

I have at least 5 viands in this plate. Takaw!

Sunnex. Non Stick Frying Pan. (May 2010)

After buying an Air Cooler, I thought it would be such a waste of taxi fare if I didn't go to the grocery too. I bought lots of power drinks because the heat makes me thirsty all the time. And then I saw this frying pan at 50% off. I have no idea about the brand, but I love items on sale. I just had to buy it.

Iwata TJ-XKL-10A : Evaporative Air Conditioner. (May 2010)

I have been home this long weekend and I can't believe the heat inside our apartment! It's unbearable esp. during the afternoons. It felt like I was gonna die of heat stroke any moment.

So today, I bought an air cooler. Cheaper than an AC and consumes less electricity (80 watts for this unit). It consumes even less electricity than my current industrial fan (250 watts). Cool!

To The Best, Happy Mother's Day, Mommy! ♥♥♥ (May 2010)

We love you, Ma! ♥♥♥

Birthday Lunch with Family (Kenny Rogers, Market Market. 4.2010)

A week before my birthday, my family was in Manila to buy a van for business. They only had a couple of hours to meet me and I only had my lunch break to see them. We met at Market Market (Fort) and had lunch at Kenny Rogers.

Thank you bebelabs for taking time have lunch before my birthday. I love you all! Mwaaaah!

I was late so I ordered my food late. Forgot the name of this plate. (Around 150 Php). The staff said I can't take photos. Haha. Whatever!